Dear Sad1,
Welcome to Virtual Hospice. I'm so glad that you found us. We will accompany you on this difficult journey. You are not alone. In fact there are several threads that you may wish to read and post a message to. When you post a message, they will receive an email notifying them that a new message has been added.
On these threads, you'll meet andreadzel, GirlWithTheBlackBeret, SeaGlass81, mzmojo, marstin and many more who have walked a similar path.
I hope it helps for you to keep writing. We're here to listen and to lean on.
Talk soon.
Colleen