Hi Sadsandy,
I have just joined and have been reading your posts and really relating to you and how you are feeling about the loss of you mom.
I to lost my mom Oct 2,2020 to cancer after a year long battle. I quit my job and moved in with her as she never wanted to go into the hospital. It's been a little over 6 months now and I seem to feel worse instead of better. It's like the numbness has now wore off and I'm left with this raw emotion that I'm not sure wht to do with. I am also finding that some of the terrible images are etched in my head of her sickness and bad days she had and just her all round decline.I want to be back to thinking of all she was before the stupid cancer and all those memories, but hy seem impossible to recource at this point.
You are right about being the daughter and watching your rock, the strongest lady you know wither away. It has certainly changed me. I find that the old me passed away with her and I am suddenly this new person that I no longer know.
I just wanted to drop a line and let you know you are not alone in what you're feeling, and to thank you for writing so that I know I am not alone in what I am feeling as well.