Hi Laura: I am relatively new here as well. I found a lot of comfort from the members and incredible support. There has been no judgement, something I deeply needed and wanted; it's also a safe place to speak.

I am truly breaking at how things have been for you over the past few plus years my heart goes out to you. I can only speak from my experience and most certainly not a coucilor (please ignore any spelling errors). But I would like to offer up my two cents worth, who knows maybe there might be a thread you might like.

Grief doesn't seem to have anytime frames or have a completion date. Each passing of a beloved one may well open a previously thought closed and healed wound. For me my husbands sudden passing was a shock and rendered me unable to function on my normal train. Its almost as if my tracks became a huge roller coaster with no stop as my parents passing came to the forefront as well.

I reached out to this virtual site and found it to be exactly what I needed. I hope you keep writing and letting people know how you are doing. For myself I am getting better and now understand more with less questions. Some people in my life while well meaning turned out to be a bit misguided with expectations I couldn't meet. So, with the help I got here; I understood that they were also greiving in their own way.

I sure hope this helps and I would like to think that you are a very strong person who can see the light at the end of the tunnel.

Linda