HI RichardH,
Welcome. Although each person’s story is unique, there are many people in our little community, like Marstin, NatR and Mark99, who can relate to what you're going through.
I can only imagine how difficult it is for you to talk about your partner with others. Each conversation reminds you how ill he is – that is sad. Tears are a normal response to sadness, but I hear what you are saying about being embarrassed – it’s hard when we can’t control those emotions. Is the thought of going back to work hard too?
Can you tell me a little more about your partner’s health? Will you have increased support when you go back to work?
Katherine