Hi Carole....
just heading for bed but one more email to read....and it was your post.
we have another thing in common. Raised as a preachers kid and turned out like you....not religious but yet seeing a spiritual side that is difficult to understand but I feel it is there...like you said.
its being open to ideas that helps I think....who Can say....we have to have some faith and investigate things for ourselves.
Congrats on buying a vehicle....sometimes we have to do that with "faith" as well.
glad my note gave you some comfort....just another voice in the wilderness...listening and sharing...learning from each one,
yes es there is very little left after we lose someone....but I believe that your love is what matters the most. We dont take up much space after death, thinking of my parents....larger than life when on this earth, part of my existence for so many years, telling me how to behave, teaching me things, preaching at me, members of community, caring for friends and connections through work, church, neighbourhood....then, poof....just a few souvenirs, a letter or two, photographs, buttons from a military jacket....a nurses watch that mom wore on her uniform...more photos...
But not much to represent a busy involved life.
ken was your rock, he mattered to you, to his family and friends. Nuts his spirit that will always remain with you...his words, smile, hugs, touch...stories, personality etc.
wear the ring, remember him....he is so much more than just a few mementos....he lived, loved and cared....
thats what matters.
you are missing him, he was real...and he always will remain so in your mind....love is a powerful force.
sorry to write so much....just rambling thoughts from another gal...sending you peaceful thoughts tonight,
hugs :) rest 💐💓
natr 😌