Hello everyone.

 

I lost all of my grandparents within 3 years, the first one in a traumatic way, the two last ones within the last 8 months. I can't help but often feel a terrible and strong sadness. I know sadness leaves with time to be replaced with mostly good memories, but those last months have been very difficult for me, losing the 2 last ones.

I do not have much friends nor good friends, I am in my mid-30s with no kids and might not make a family anytime soon.

 

Since I was a kid, I have always been very shy, socially awkward, and my grandparents, unlike anyone else on this planet, have always been my "shelter", my friends, my confidents, with whom I could share anything and everything and always be myself. This bond I shared with them was really strong.

 

Today, without them, I don't have anyone anymore with whom I can share this kind of pain ( and really not with a professional ), but I still don't know how to cope with it. I have a busy job, and I try to keep myself occupied because anyway life goes on, however, they had been such an important part of my life, it is hard to cope. I don't know how to advance positively in my life without them, I feel like there is just no point anymore to make any efforts ( in a social perspective )... Your thoughts are welcome. Thank you.