Greetings,
I've read this conversation with great interest. It helped me understand what it has been like for me during the pandemic. My "bright and active" grief after my husband died lasted for over a year. Then I found myself trying to remember who we were together before he disappeared into dementia.
When I went into lockdown, all my regular practices just collapsed: when I get up, when I do yoga, when I pray. And I was crying all the time.
I'm glad you as a professional know how to recognize and think about these responses, whether disengagement or chaotic response.
And now, with Thanksgiving, Remembrance Day, and holidays, whatever shape they may take, I am trying to build a new, less rigid and more alive practice. Saying thank you is so central. I try to thank every service person I meet--grocery story, pharmacy, etc.
You all are gifts, and I am thankful for you.
Nouce