Dear Ollie1968,
I am so sorry for your loss. I can only imagine how it would feel to lose a child and to have your worst fears confirmed. Your experience of frustration, anger, and confusion are understandable, particularly when others will not let you share your experience. The restrictions of COVID have unfortunately, made the experience of mourning and isolation all the more difficult. Sometimes it can just seem incomprehensible.
I have not experienced the loss of a child, but in losing my grandparents, I have taken a great deal of solace in the small items that I have inherited: a letter opener, a book, a model tractor...
It sounds like the beautiful urn you received along with the jewellery and memories carried powerful memories, perhaps some that were positive among the what-ifs and maybes? I am wondering what has brought you solace and strength through the lonely days and nights?
Kind regards,
Trevor Lehmann