Hi cmcaht,
Having read your posts I might say that the first year of your grieving could well be the worst year. Getting past all those firsts is hard. It is the period leading up to that date that is usually worse than the event itself. Also, I sense that there is now a bit of a tug of war going on between you and your youngest daughter. You should not feel that she really does not love you any more. She would not spend so much energy fighting with you if she did not love you. The question is who will give the rope some slack. You might consider getting help through a professional counselor to see how you can move forward and not allow your daughter to draw you into those fights. It will also take giving her a lot of positive strokes, even if she has not earned them. I am sure a good family counselor could help you brake the impass. Please keep us posted and feel free to dump here. We care about you.
Brayden