Hi Nadine,
Thank you for your kindness. I just reread my last line and realized how bad that sounded. What I meant was that there is probably someone much wiser than me that can offer advice also.
I remember how difficult it was when Len was ill like your husband. When I was at that point in time I found that I had to look for little things to bring a smile to my lips like the sun peeking through the clouds, a flower growing in the garden, kind words from someone or even the smell of a freshly brewed coffee. It's a fragile time and it is so easy to feel like there is nothing to be happy about yet if you look around you, you might just notice something that never meant anything before can now bring a smile to your lips. My smile came from suddenly developing a love for working in my garden, just the feel of the soil and the sight of the beautiful flowers. I think for me it was just a way of taking my mind off of what was happening and replacing it for just a few moments, even just in my mind, with something beautiful.
Hugs,
Tracie