He's a family friend who I see every so often, and my heart just goes out to him. I just admire him so much as a person. He's so kind, and warm, and funny, and great to be around. I just want him to know he's so special. I find it hard sometimes to maintain hope, but I have to try. Hope just that things can be good. They can still be good. I feel like I love him too much sometimes. And like I have to keep back the emotions so as not to overwhelm him. It ends up being like, pretending I care less though, which isn't good. I want to maximize every opportunity to care, but at the same time be respectful of boundaries, and approach him where he's at. He's so strong, and thinking about him feels like it helps me, in my own life. I haven't seen him in a long time now because I've had to deal with my own stuff with regards to this, but I regret that. I wish I knew what to do.