Dear idon'tknow,
"I wish I had a crystal ball." How well I understand that sentiment! How long will you need to be on leave? How long will your mother suffer? How well will you be able to find the pieces of light in the midst of the darkness? How well will you be able to assure yourself (or will others assure you) that you are doing your best?
Sometimes I joke: "I've developed a new philosophy. I only dread one day at at time." At other times, I try the more serious: Every day I look for some small sign of beauty. And with that I try not to look farther ahead, or count back "how long it's been."
Not easy. Be blessed in the midst
Nouce