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Disenfranchise/unrecognized grief 
Started by CDP
24 Dec 2024, 6:31 PM

Yesterday I said goodbye.  I said goodbye to someone that has been an integral part of my life, my wellness for the last 10 years.  She is gentle and kind, forthright and supportive.  We had to say goodbye.

She is my family doctor and she is retiring.  I don't know how others might feel about their family doctor, but I abstolutely adore mine.  She's helped me through the loss of my mom and the end of my marriage, but so much more.  As an adult that has lived through childhood abuse and spousal abuse, she has helped me to begin to value myself.  She held my hand, helped me wipe away the tears and break through the cycle of abuse.  She reminded me how well I was doing, everyone has bad days and that I have endured a lot.  She reminded me that I am an intelligent, resourceful woman that is independant and strong enough to face my emotions; strong enough to face my fears.

My heart aches at this loss.  Having endured so much loss in life, this of course feels the most raw.  It is fresh.  It is uncomfortable.  And frankly, most people I've shared this loss with simply don't understand.  It is still a loss.  It is still hard.  She was the first person I told about my childhood abuses.  She was the first person with whom I shared my broken heart.  She was the one person I've felt really understood me and supported me.  What will I do without this tremendous support?  What will I do without her?  This is more than simply losing a family doctor.  I have found a new doctor to carry on my health care.   This is losing an amazing human being.

I do and I shall continue to miss her.
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Reply by eKIM
24 Dec 2024, 9:24 PM

Hello CDP

This is Michael aka eKim.  I am not a professional therapist.  I have been a volunteer here since 2012 as well as a volunteer with other hospices.  First of all, I wish you well and a Happy (happiest as possible) Holidays.
Secondly, I “get” what you are saying and my heart goes out to you.

Disenfranchised grief is a strange word but it is accurate.

Disenfranchised grief is a term that describes grief that is not acknowledged, socially supported, or publicly mourned.  Disenfranchised grief can make it difficult to process and express emotions, and to obtain support. 

I have observed, over the years, that the depth of grief is determined often by the closeness of the relationship between the person who is grieving and who//what they are grieving.

I met a lady once who told me that her husband had recently died, but before I could even offer condolences, she said that now she felt free.  Her husband never wanted to do anything and now she and her girlfriend were going on a trip to Europe.

Another person I know still grieves the loss of her dog who died 5 years ago.  The dog was her constant companion and her greatest source of comfort.
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YOU ASKED: “What will I do without this tremendous support?  
Coping with disenfranchised grief can be challenging, but there are several strategies you can employ to navigate this difficult experience:

Validate Your Feelings
Recognize that your grief is legitimate, regardless of how others perceive it
Allow yourself to experience and express your emotions without judgment
Remember that there is no "right" way to grieve, and your unique experience is valid
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Professional help: Consider seeking support from a counsellor or therapist who specializes in grief and loss
They can provide a safe space for you to express your feelings and offer guidance for coping
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Seek Support
Connect with understanding individuals: Reach out to friends, family members, or online communities who can empathize with your experience
Look for support groups or forums focused on specific types of loss where you can share openly
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Express Your Grief
Journaling: Write about your thoughts and emotions in a private journal to help process your feelings
Creative outlets: Engage in artistic activities like painting, music, or other forms of creative expression to help you work through your emotions
Create personal rituals: Establish meaningful ceremonies or traditions to honour your loss and find effective ways to reconcile yourself to your loss.
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Practice Self-Care
Engage in self-care activities: Take care of your physical, emotional, and mental well-being by participating in activities that bring you joy and relaxation
Mindfulness and meditation: Use these techniques to stay present and cope with difficult emotions during your grieving process
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Educate and Advocate
Learn about disenfranchised grief: Educate yourself and others about this type of grief to raise awareness and reduce misconceptions
Advocate for change: If you feel comfortable, consider advocating for more recognition and support for disenfranchised grief in your community
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Outward Reaching vs Inward Seeking
This is a technique that I personally use.  It may not work for others but it works well for me.
I have stage 4 prostate cancer.  One of my most effective self-care methods is:
I spend a lot of time reaching out to those who are grieving. 
I find that the entire time that I am thinking about someone else, I am not thinking about my own situation.
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Remember that everyone’s journey of healing from grief is different.  There is no “one-size-fits-all” approach.
None of the items above may help you personally.  They are not presented as a prescription.  They are only for you to read and encourage you to find what will work for you.
Healing from disenfranchised grief is a personal journey that takes time. Be patient with yourself and allow space for your unique grieving process
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Let me know if any of this helps and please stay in touch with us here at Canadian Virtual Hospice Forum.
-Michael
 
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Reply by CDP
25 Dec 2024, 8:39 PM

Michael,

Many thanks for your post and acknowledgement.  It is hard to not feel overwhelmed with so much ongoing.  I know my doctor will always hold a special place in my heart and certainly hope that our paths cross again sometime.

Holidays are tough as I've recently left a long term relationship.  Married for 24 years, together for 30.  We have a teenage daughter.  She expresses very little interest in seeing me - at least when it is not convenient.  Trying to give space while not drowning in this pitty party is a challenge.  Christmas, I tell myself, is just another day and we can celebrate family time any days we wish.  However, it is still hard to spend the holidays alone.

Once again, I wish to thank you for your suggestions, support and kind words.  I certainly wish you Happy Holidays.
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Reply by Allyson
26 Dec 2024, 6:21 PM

Dear CDP,

In the spring I received a letter in the mail indicating that my doctor of 30+ years was retiring.  My stomach did a somersault.  Sh*t sh*t sh*t I said.  She too had brought me through many life changing things.

I was given to a new doctor and we met to discuss change over.  A month later I received another letter stating that she was leaving the clinic too.

So I am now also looking for a new doctor.  My brother just found a new one and he likes her very much so I am going to give her a try.

Losing your doctor is like losing a best friend.  I was lucky to have her for so long and I hope you like me can find a doctor that can support us.

I am thinking of you.

Allyson
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