Hi Wildose.
My best friend died 4 months ago. I wish I could say it gets easier, but sometimes it gets harder. It's like the intensity of the change settles....and the days are just simply quieter and emptier. My friends birthday was two days after her funeral.
These days are tough for sure....I do hope you can find some comfort in the support here. I have found that learning of others feeling the same way that I find a degree of safety. The hurt is the same but the weight of it feels a little lighter.
I am sorry for your loss, and the holidays coming don't make it easier. The computer is a great resource for sure...and while the temperature drops, a full sun on a still wintery day can still hold a degree of peacefulness. I hope you can find a minute of that in each day.
Yes, the new normal takes adjusting to for sure. Give yourself time for that, and for a minute of peace as well.
WM