Hi EastCoastPEI
Thank you for sharing such an important part of your and your mum’s life. I would imagine Mother’s Day brings those memories up even more.
One of the great things about this community is that I know others will be able to share personal experiences. What I would like to do is suggest a thread started by J.D. What I didn't know about morphine which has some very helpful information and links.
I think this is very important to sort out for your own self. Now may be the time you have the energy and ability to talk with your mum’s doctor and get more information surrounding her death. My one suggestion is that if you do decide to go through her medical records – ask a health professional to go through it with you to help with interpretation - even if you have a medical background.
To be present when someone has died to me has always been a very sacred time – whether one is religious or not – perhaps both you and your mother gave each other the gift (although right now it may not seem like a gift) of sharing that time?
Thinking of you EastCoastPEI…
Katherine