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Started by Nouce
27 Nov 2020, 4:06 PM

Greetings,
 
I am walking along with a friend whose grief is fresh and deep. My own is older and has had more twists and turns. Just now they are struggling with the reality that they want to cry but can't. Has anyone lived with this experience or could offer some wisdom?
 
Thannks,
Nouce
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27 Nov 2020, 4:31 PM

Dear Nouce,
A new member, colorcrazy just posted on this very topic, I am now a widow

Katherine
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Reply by eKIM
28 Nov 2020, 4:41 PM

Nouce

Recently I came across something that I had never heard before - despite the fact that I had been listening to people's stories of healing for 10 years now.  

Someone told me that they had a friend whose, teenage son was dying from cancer. 

When they asked if they could be a compassionate listener to their story, the friend said, "I cannot speak of this.  It is if I am on the edge of a cliff.  If I even take one step in that direction, I am afraid that I will fall into an abyss from which I will never return."  

Allowing oneself to be open to grief can cause great fear.  This can cause a person to get "stuck" sometimes in "complicated grief".  I don't know if this is what is happening to your friend, but perhaps a professional grief counsellor could help them.

-eKim
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Reply by Mark99
03 Dec 2020, 5:11 PM

When you hold your memories and the love close to you. It seems those can be used in the darkness like a glow stick that you snap to illuminate your path forward without moving on but carrying that love as strong memory that you can share with joy because it’s a gift within you.

These memories become parts of a quilt that can comfort and hold you close and guide us. The feelings and emotions can be found, embraced, and open us up to new and better understanding of love. It is at that point when we are free to feel and be one with the light and memories of our loss. 
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Reply by eKIM
03 Dec 2020, 6:20 PM

Thank you so much Mark for your wonderful words.  Delightful imagery.  I learn so much from people who post their deepest thoughts here.


I know someone who (even after 3 years) cannot move on with their Journey of Healing.  He cannot even think of his wife without great pain, so he doesn’t think of her except with all-pervading sorrow.


If you don’t mind, I will share (not using your name for confidentiality) your thoughts with him.


I hope that he can see that memories and love are a gift.  A gift to help him move forward. 


And you wisely mentioned “sharing”.  That’s the thing about love, isn’t it?  We do not receive love to accumulate and hoard it. 


The beauty of love is that it both heals and enriches us as it passes through us to others. 


And interestingly, the more love we give away, the more comes to us.  It is the love that people radiate that makes them so loveable.  And this attracts others to them.


I never say it directly, but (when I meet someone new) I impart the question, “Tell me who you love so I can know who you are.”  Once I see who and how they love, I immediately love them.  All people are loveable in this way.


- eKim

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